[Sunrise at Midnight]

Originally Posted by Sweet Embrace (View Post) Thanks Kali. I do it to myself, i crave attention from him knowing I am making it hard on myself.

Hormones and emotions are wild things it happens to everyone at some point

[Sweet Embrace]

That is so true Kali.

[MarissaAngell]

So this is it... Either one of us break the spell and drown the ship or we get to some point and paddle to shore...

Im generally a very bad person who cares only about herself and maybe only little about her mom. Im totally stubborn as hell and not even trying to listen.
I do everything the wrong way, talk too much rubbish and keep silent when talking matters the most...
I can't make anyone happy and am not willing to change...

Basically I deserve to rot alone in my cell of darkness and sorrow...


I imagine its all I am worth so no wonder we're on the verge of break up the whole week and before that...

And the worst is that I still have no idea how to handle an actual relationship because on tv it seems so easy and in books so beautiful

I just feel like a huge mess and believe this trait developed from the fact my father left me (for reasons unknown to me) as if I didn't mean a thing even before he get a chance to actually see me.
So I kinda grew up with this "men-hate" slogan attitude and swore never fall in love (at least with a guy)..

Then granny died, I got job and life changed..
I met Him and we decided to try...

Possibly a bad mistake if all I can give is constant pain.
So it comes that I keep torturing Him only because I want to be loved by a man and love a man whom I've let in my hardened heart....

I just dunno what to do

Problem is that I like Him so much I fear it must be love but then he keeps dropping those "we better are on our own" bombs and I loose all my hopes to fix it.

Maybe I've developed some form of Stockholm Sindrome or just in love but it still doesn't lessen my heartache about the whole situation because He said he can't change and I doubt I can be capable of that....

[IrishSouthernBelle]

^ just saw you post. I think that the fact that zyou want it to work means that you zcare.z maybe he is tired of the drma and thanks that zia why you will be better apart. maybe if yu look at what is wrong and what is worth keeping one or both of you will find how zto zmake it work.

[Sweet Embrace]

So I've met someone. We're in a long distance relationship (he lives 5 hours from me) but we're keen to make this work, he travels down to see me, I go up to see him.

We're having our first official date next week (hes spending the weekend down here) and I'm hoping everything clicks, everything goes well. He tells me he is absolutely certain he wants to be with me.

[MarissaAngell]

IrishSouthernBelle I see your point. And we've had it over and over again.. The prob is that I'm really different person. Whereas I see things from artistical pov he sees everything from practical pov.
He wants me good but I'm not used to think over certain stuff before acting out on it. And that's probably coming from how I was raised. I have no father and was raised by women. I saw only that I wanted to be different from them. So I was in a way a rebel. However being raised rather freely I never learned to listen other people and kinda got used to manipulate those I could into what I wanted...

Now he wants to take a break but isnt too hopeful we will get back together...

SweetEmbrace hope it works out for you

[Tina]

That's great, Theresa! I am so happy for you... I hope things go as planned.

Ev: I hope things get back on track.

[Sunrise at Midnight]

Theresa! I hope all goes well!

[MarissaAngell]

So we're done... he just said so many sad things and left me broken...

Said it was my fault...

All I want is to crawl in a corner and die

[Bec =)]

I'm sorry to hear it didn't go so well, Ev!

There's guys out there, that live closer, that are more deserving of you.

[Sweet Embrace]

Thanks Tina, Kali, Ev! I'm so excited Today I had really bad period pains and I told him and he text me to go sleep, lie down and insisted I take meds. It was really sweet.

Im so sorry to hear that Ev

[Aurora Cormier]

I'm so sorry Ev But can I give you a piece of advice? Forget what you see on tv/books/movies when you're in a real life relationship, I mean, try not to compare or expect everything to be a fairytale. It'll spare you a lot of pain Also, you seem to really know who you are, what your personality is like, how you handle things, how your raising reflect on who you are now. That's pretty awesome, you know? Knowing all that about yourself makes you stronger and much more capable of dealing with adversities like the one you're facing now. It may seem like the world is ending now, but you're so much more than this moment


Theresa, YAY!

[Sweet Embrace]

Some really good advice there ^^

Thank you so much!!

[Aurora Cormier]

Let us know how everything goes

[Sweet Embrace]

I will! Date night is tomorrow, we're going to eat and then for drinks. Then spending Saturday together