Tennessee Whiskey

Hi everyone!

We currently have an open moderator position on this message board. If you'd like to apply for this position, please go to the Moderator Application Process - How to Apply & Questions Answered thread and follow the instructions to apply to be a moderator on this board. Please note that the deadline to get applications in is 12:00 PM GMT on November 15th. If you don't receive a confirmation Private Message within 24 hours after you send in your application, please send a Private Message to boot-n-rally.

Please don't use this thread as a “campaign thread” for someone you think should get the position, because we want everyone that's interested in the position to apply.

Thank you, and good luck to everyone who applies!

Stars Fade

Good Luck to those who apply!

deep within me

I never thought, not in millions years, that I would actually do this but I felt that it’s the right thing to do. You know, when I got the position, I was absolute over the moon about it because I really loved and enjoyed talking everything about him, like the riots about his career opportunties, his candids, and etc with you girlies/guys. This board was my baby and that’s why it’s so hard for me to do this but same time it’s the right thing to do. And also, that’s one of the reasons why it brought our beautiful friendships because of him and for that I am very grateful and also am very glad that we found a way to keep in touch outside of this board which is why this is a little easier decision for me to make.

I know that some of you guys are probably upset about my decision but please understand where I am coming from. Talking about him and honoring him is a great way to think he was still alive but it’s also in my case, so hard for me. I have tried to post as much as I could since the day the news came out and I have tried to keep modding this board just because I thought that I could honor him just like you guys are doing but same time, it didn’t help with my grief. It’s like I was holding on to the past and it doesn’t let me move on with my life and think all the positive things and be less sad everyday. So talking about him would give me all the sad reminders that he’s missing out for rest of his life and that doesn’t comfort me at all. Plus I am totally and completely done with the show, glee, so the characters from those threads, let me put it that way, I don’t care about them anymore. I have wiped off my hands with everything linked to that show so there’s no point for me to stick around to post those threads of other characters when I don’t even watch it anymore and don’t even bother to care to know what they are doing with their lives. It’s time for me to move on and not be reminded of sad things. When I am away from this board, as some of you guys already notice how lack of active I am with this board, I start to get healed and be more positive because that’s how I am away from those things. Besides don’t you think that Cory board deserves to have some mods who would be here everyday and keep the board alive and in good hand? I am definitely not the answer for that because it’s the last thing I want to come on here when I log on because of sad reminders and everything. So for him, I think he deserves more than I can give to his board so whoever gets it, will be lucky to mod this board and keep his memory alive. So I really hope you guys understand why I am doing this. I am really sorry but like I said, it’s the right thing to do.

I never thought that I would see the day that I would leave this board in a year since I got the position but I gotta tell you, modding this board was the absolute best experience for me because I got to enjoy it with you, girlies/guys. He was the first celebrity that gave me all of those exciting feelings and gave me the best riots about everything so there will be no celebrity that could ever complete with what he gave me, that I can tell you. Yes, I love any other celebrities but none of them ever made me feel that way like he did. He was definitely one of a kind. I will always remember those days that I spent on this board, even before I got the position. All the memories, all the happiness, everything, they are forever in my heart.

Cory Monteith, I will always miss you and I know that you would want me to be happy and get on with my life just like you always preach all the wisdom advices and that’s exactly what I am doing that. I am happy to know that you are in a beautiful place that you are finally at peace. You deserve that more than anyone especially what you have been through since your horrible childhood. Your board gave me the best experience and all the fun times I had being online and it’s all because of you and I thank you for giving me that and will always remember those times.

As for my co-mods, oh my god, I don’t know what to say other than I had pleasure of modding with you girlies for as long as I was given that chance and you guys made this board so much fun and a great experience for me to have and for that, I will always cherish that and I love you guys so much for giving me that. Our friendships are something special and already so strong, especially since summertime, I am so grateful to have you guys in my life and you guys really helped me get through the hardest times which is why it was so hard decision to step down from this board because I would never get to co-mod with you girlies anymore but that’s ok, our friendships are much bigger than that and that’s why I am ok with doing this. You know, when I think of our friendships, I think of Cory because he brought us to each other for that reason and for that, I thank him and owe it to him so much for that.

I would say same thing with you, posters, you know who you are, and I am glad that we met through each other because of him.

And lastly, I can’t promise you that if I would stop by here once in a while but I can try my best to do that but like I said we found another way to keep in touch outside of this board which is why it’s easier to do that. And some of you, who don’t have that with me, you guys can PM me anytime. Anyways, good luck to all the candidates! Whoever gets it will be luckiest poster ever to experience modding this board and keep this board live on!

to all of my co-mods and posters!

sparksღfly

I'm jus crying i understand heck I'm the same but reading it is tough

As for the next mod who Will be lucky enough to mod with Adie, this board , Cory are so special.

And as taylor said :" i had the time of my life fighting dragons with you."

like a perfect storm

As I've said before, I completely understand bb, if Emma died I'd step down too and the board would probably close because nobody even applied for it but... anyway, I get it, I'll miss you modding this board and I know how unbelievably hard this is for you, to step down and Cory's death in general, I love you so much, don't ever forget that bb okay.

*Stephie*

Sorry to hear this, bb but it is totally understandable. I have a hard time coming here also, so yeah.

Love you, guys.

sweet creature

Aww, I'm so sorry to see you stepping down Raddy. I'm not a poster here but it makes me really sad to see you go, because you obviously love Cory and the board a lot. You shouldn't feel bad at all about doing this, though. It sucks, and I'm sure you being away will make a big difference on the board, but if this is making you feel sad, then it's more than understandable that you want to let it go. We all deal with grief in different ways, and that's okay.

Good luck to everyone who applies.

And hang in there Adie and Leyla.

~MelBelle~

Goodluck to all applying

ღfaithfully

Hey guys,

Actually, I'm very sad and heartbroken to say that I too have decided to step down from the moderator position. This was a very hard decision for me to come to, and I'm not even writing this post on the board but on Word because it's so hard and devastating to see me saying this. I imagined to stay as an active moderator on this board way past my 30s. I imagined to stay until I was the last poster left. This board was my baby. I put hours of posting and art making to this board. It gave me so much happiness. I spent my Friday nights on here with the greatest friends, watching movies or talking about the most amazing celebrity on earth, rather than at clubs or house parties like every other person my age, and I was happy with that. This board was my home.

Santana in the Quarterback said something that echoes what I'm about to say very well. This place was my home, but now it's a reminder of everything I've lost. Now it's a reminder of all the grief I feel. Now it's a reminder that there will be no new threads to make for Cory's new roles, there will be no new pictures to post in the Pictures thread, there will be no updates anywhere. It's a sad reminder of a life cut too short, of my idol being gone, of my favourite character not achieving his goals. Because of that, I've neglected this board. As I'm sure you've all noticed, I've been away from posting for a long time and even when I did come to post it would be barely. So contrary to when I would spree this board 5 pages, and post actively and happily on every thread every day. I can't be here. It's too hard. It's like when a parent whose lost a child enters the room of their child to see their left belongings. They're filled with memories of every object in that room. For me, this board is Cory's room to me, but even worse because I spent so much time here and this place once gave me so much happiness, but now sadly it just makes me depressed and stricken with grief all over again.

I wanted to stay here, I wanted to continue honouring him and his amazing life here. I want so badly to be strong enough. But I also can't help how I feel. I also don't want to be in a mental state of depression and grief constantly. Everyone said it'll get easier and it'll get better with time. So I waited. It didn't. Being here still hits me with all that I've lost and all that's changed. So I have to let go, as hard as it is, I know that's what he'd want me to do.

I will still continue to love and honour Cory till my last breath. I miss him every single day and there isn't a morning or night where he isn't on my mind. Where I don't look at my Cory poster, necklace, or cellphone background whether it'd be with sadness or whether it'd be with a "I hope you're watching me look" or whether it'd be a source of motivation. He'll always mean so much to me. And everyone who has me on Facebook knows how much I've let that be publicly known to real life friends who don't necessarily understand what I'm going through. On my tumblr, twitter, and any other social media outlet and through his charities, I will continue to honour him. Reblog pictures or tweets. Sometimes they make me sad, sometimes they make me smile. Now, the question arises how can I do that but not stay on FanForum? I think the simple answer to that is I spent way more time obsessing over Cory on FanForum than anywhere else. I have memories here that I don't have anywhere else. That's why this place is sensitive. It's also different to see a picture of Cory and reblog it, than to have to come here and discuss how he's gone in every single thread with bawling faces. It's much harder to talk about it. It's easier to honour him by reliving a portion of his life in images and gifsets.

Cory is still my idol and my biggest inspiration. Even in death, he continues to inspire me. I've become so much of changed person since his death. I've lost 25-30 pounds of weight. I'm finally the size small and 2 I've always wanted to be. That's not because I've been starving myself of grief but because his passing motivated me to get serious about my insecurities. It showed me how deadly they can be. So I've spent the last 3 months eating healthy and exercising. I've fought my insecurities like he taught me to. His passing also motivated me to live my life to the fullest because life is too short. I've reconnected with old friends, found new ones, started volunteering, working, and working towards my future career. I rarely spend more than an hour on the computer these days, and sometimes I don't come on for a couple days. I'm no longer obsessed with television shows. I still watch them. But I'm no longer invested in fandoms or fictional lives, because I want to live my real life. That's also part of the reason why I'm stepping down, I simply don't have the time to be here now and I am not fixated on being on the internet or in fandoms anymore.

I want to thank every single person on this board and on this website in general who made this my favourite place to be for so long. I still love you guys. Don't get me wrong, I will always love you guys and be thankful of the friendships I've made on here. I want to continue them, thankfully I know a lot of you outside FanForum and have you on Facebook or even on my phone to keep in touch, but for the others - to keep in touch with me you can always add me on Facebook - just send me a private message or we'll follow each other on tumblr/twitter - message me about that too. I may stop by here every once in a while to check in and see how things are and catch up with you guys. I will try and do that. But I wholeheartedly thank every single one of you for all the memories, the joy, and the conversations we've had over the years. I will never forget you guys. Raddy and Adie, my two lovely co-mods, I know we'll keep in touch outside here and I'm grateful for that but also modding with you both has been the best experience and I wouldn't take it back for the world. I wouldn't take back being moderator of this board and loving Cory as passionately as I did despite the pain I feel. He taught me a lot, he changed my life, and for that I will forever be grateful to him and to this board for giving me the space to obsess over him for so long. I will always be very grateful to the Moderator Managers for giving me this position.

Because of that, I hope you guys apply. I hope some of you can find the strength to apply and stay here. I know we talked about closing the board, but Adie wants to keep it open, so for her we decided to let it stay. She's a wonderful co-mod to have and I hope whoever succeeds me and Raddy will keep Cory's memory here alive with her. I know many of you who are capable of doing that, so I hope you apply. And I will stay as moderator to help determine who succeeds us and do some of my last posting here.

This post is excessively long so I'll end it here but again I'm so sad to be doing this. I will forever love every single one of you and Cory with all of my heart. Thank you for the memories. I will miss you all.

Best of luck and wishes,
Leyla <3 XOXO

P.S. Beautiful post Raddy I'm here for you bb, always

Stars Fade

sorry to say, i have low expectations.

deep within me

Clem! That's very beautifully said. I totally echo this statement and I am sorry that my post made you cry but thanks for understanding, bb.

Sara! Thanks for understanding, bb. Yeah, it's a VERY, VERY tough decision for me to make because it has been going on since the day news came out and now that's it because I felt like I had to for my own sake. So again, thanks!

Stephie! Thanks for understanding. Yeah, it's sad but it's time to let go and move on and get on with my life.

Catia! Thanks for understanding. Yeah, it sure sucks because like you already know how much I feel about him and this board but it's time to move on and when I posted it, I felt a little bit better doing that because part of me is already letting go of sad things and it's helping me with that.

Leyla, wow, what a beautiful post, bb. And what you said, you guys, I ECHO WHAT SHE SAID because that's exactly how I feel especially with the grief part and how his death changed me since then especially with fandom lifestyle and real life because I have stopped being obsessed with tv shows and more as regular viewer and focus on real life goals which is what I am doing that everyday. She said it perfectly so I want to echo that.

And also, thanks for your words and I am here for you too, bb!

Stars Fade

this thread is depressing so I'm going to turn to listening to jonas/demi

i've expected it...just felt that i lost everything.

sparksღfly

Oh god

I love you all guys forever and always

That's My Girl

Lunch break and crying like a baby at your posts girls I just was at the CT when I read the Opening mods, i expected one to step down but two

Leyla, I spent hours with you making arts or talk about it and him...I still have most of our PMs. I am gonna miss you being here. I understand your feeling and I hope you find peace and everything you need in life. Amazing post which made me cry so much

Raddy, god, I remember when you got the mod position, you were so excited and you have been amazing since the start and I agree that you need to make a decision sometimes that is really hard and I hope you will feel better soon. I cried at your post girl too.

Adie, I understand your feeling and I know it is hard on you too. You feel left out. You can PMme anytime you want. I find myself actually watching him without crying lately...

Clem, damn it feels like ages that we talked...i miss you

like a perfect storm

OH LEYLA. I completely understand why your stepping down too bb, Cory's death was hard on you both, it was hard on all of us, and I get why you don't wanna mod the board anymore, I will miss you as mod but I completely understand why your doing it, I love you bb, don't forget that okay.