80s90sIsTheBest

aww I'm sorry I hope your okay now.

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Millie filing bankrupt and combo of work at the same time made a breakdown where at first doc thought it was work stressors than it became generalized anxiety - attempted for like 2 weeks before going on sick leave, I had a meltdown when she tried to send me back to work which lead to why am up at the Adult Mental Health department up at the hospital

Erin I worked in my 20s related to call centers, also did college twice. Once right out of high school where mom forced me to complete it but than was within the call center world. I worked 3 years before something else happened that caused my first social assistance and than took a year of general studies. Worked a different call center for a year, tried house cleaning than 3.5 years at my previous employer before sick leave - while on sick leave made 4 year milestone

Mi||iê Måë

Yeah, it's not fun, I'm good now, and am dealing with it better but it sucks that I can't feel, what society labels as 'normal' because of it you know?

So my disability is labeled as 'Mental Health' and the stigma attached to that sucks because people go right away to the ideas.

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Yea as of right now have Anxiety than the meds kicked my occassional insomnia into full force so take antideprassants plus sleep meds

I'm also trying to figure out if depression, OCD, anti-social cause I pretty much just do and do some outside in real life but otherwise am happy not dealing face to face with peeps

Mi||iê Måë

I have, what is termed a mild form of 'agoraphobia', people in public, and when I say mild I mean, I can be in public but when it comes to crowds I get nervous and anxiety kicks in.

Struggle with depression too and it's a cycle, also on meds for insomnia issues too, it's not fun but I'd hate to think what I'd be without meds at all!

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I always figured depression and still believe but its not been formally diagnosed which cause anxiety|depression go so hand and hand - that my family doc Feb 2017 just did anxiety. Once she told me what it was - where made total sense

I don't do well with meeting new people - my anxiety kicks in otherwise once I get over that than can be a bit of a butterfly, so when forced into social events am fine but don't go looking for it

80s90sIsTheBest

I mean I loved working and tried quite hard to do it, but...there was one job that I loved and really wanted, and it was through the work study program, but the program was cut. I worked a few jobs after that. I was quite good at them for the most part although the last one was a killer because it was a 8 hrs a day and it wasn't used to it and plus I just didn't like it either and then I started getting sick being where I was for some reason, it was only a trial type of job and it paid well, but I finally had to quit and that's the last place I worked I think.

As for college I never went not because I didn't want too, but I don't think I could do it. I had a hard enough time in school doing things and I just think college wouldn't work for me, it seems too hard.

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Yea I was surprised considering I also had a learning disabiliy which is on my list of wanting to do testing to find out update cause its been like 20 years since my public school did it

I didn't do very well with the original diploma related to Law Clerk - never failed a course but only got think like a C overall. Now when I went back for a year - I took history and some psychological|sociology that I Aced - so it was more of doing well in what interested me

I had a speech problem as a kid, took a long time to speak probably and was on Individual Education Plan so just want update plus it'll be additional and than it'll be full out knowing what I can do for work in the future

Related to work I would try to return related to taking a certificate|diploma where was looking at General Office but there's not very much that I feel I can do. Plus during my 20s, I never stayed happy anywhere and actually quit most places due to that - I would have left my previous job if I could have but it literally was the mental breakdown that allowed me to work...now if I don't find work or can't work, I would be perfectly happy not to work again

80s90sIsTheBest

I feel you... I had speech problems in school too and had to do therapy as I remember not for that problem, but for others I had, but I was almost smart in somethings. Math was my least favorite subject and I had tons of trouble with it. I don't think I could think about going back to school after all these years.

Mi||iê Måë

I was a paralegal in my early 20s, so law clerk fits!

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I recall therapy but my memory sucks I really don't have much of a good long term memory - like I recall probably doing speech therapy but otherwise I just know it sucked - speech problems, parents problems, being verbally bullied - childhood sucked its why I always figured some mental like depression

I had troubles with English Math was good with - I still have problems with English, its why am considered about Office Work where not sure if I could do administrative especially if I would have to draft my own stuff. I could do general office work, filing|etc etc and data entry

Mi||iê Måë

Yeah therapy in a group setting is a big for me!

I'm off to have some dinner and make arts for the upcoming board celebrations for Celebrities (850K) and Television (800K).

80s90sIsTheBest

I was really good with English for the most part and I liked the teacher that taught it especially in high school she was very nice so I had that advantage. I was in Special Education for most of my schooling so therapy was apart of it. I loved it for the most part, but at the same time I hated it and it was frustrated because I knew it meant I wasn't like the other kids and wasn't normal. I didn't go into a regular classroom until junior high/high school and I did okay, but it was very hard and nerve wrecking because I had always been in Special Education it was definitely something I had to get used too, and it helped because I had my Special Ed teacher there with me they did like a team teaching thing.

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Same about Special Education which I guess you could call it I know for High School - its why got out of needing a 2nd language like French plus also was involved wth the disability department both times regarding College - access to special labs and equipment, 1.5 on tests if needed related to time and a half

Make Them Laugh

thanks Chirs...I did see a capture and it said April 2002...which seems accurate b/c you guys have it listed under January-May 2002 in Tourguide thread