there are men out there that want those things? Apparently I'm in the wrong "social group". All the males I've known so far expect the opposite, hence why I'm still being patient, :lol:

I was so confused when I was 25-30, cause I used to go to a church group for young singles (ages 19-31) in order to socialize with people my age range. Most of the girls in the group were still doing college. When I joined up, I had already graduated college, went on a missionary trip (which was unusual for girls to do so) and I was probably the only girl in the group at that point who had a real post-college job - my job in prison - and my own (new) car, making more money then the majority of the girls. :embarrassment:- And to go to the level of a horny male, I had.. um... boobage of unusual size too .. hello? To sound sexist, I should have gotten instant dates just for owning those knockers, haha :P But guess who was getting all the dates and marriage proposals. On paper, i looked like a good prospect, what I'd accomplished by 25... but I think, appearing to be capable of supporting myself and holding my own in prison, made me look too intimidating or tough? ...I remember I used to wear a professional Scully-like skirt, blazer, business woman type dress to church compared to the other girls who wore flowery girly dresses too, :lol: I definitely had my own opinions too, not being a crowd follower, :shrug: Men want to be the "alpha" person ?

Oh I can imagine how you felt. I've also never been one of these women who are calm and "comfortable". I've always been very headstrong and independently. Ten years ago, when I was at university, I was in a relationship with a fellow student. I'm someone who loves to laugh and I would say that I'm also Kind of funny. But I can be very serious and profound as well. And beside university I had a job at a book store to earn money for my courses, the appartment etc. And that also included work on the weekends and shift work for the bookshop was at the main train station. So I often had to work when he wanted to go on a party. Fun was very important to him, fun and easy life. And he often claimed me for being so responsibly. He told me that he don't see me as his girlfriend any more but as his mother. And that was the moment the relationship died. I was too mature for him.