I don't even know how I was able to survive his death. I managed to close out all the spoilers and stuff, which wasn't easy as S3 was shown here way later. So I had no idea what was going to happen. And honestly, after that I was so depressed for a while that I didn't wanna start S4. I was still in denial like, how could that happen?
But I was curious about Mary and the baby's future so I decided to keep watching. It was still painful for a long time but little by little it got better..I'm still not over it but the show's got a lot more to offer, so..