[airali_glo]

I am not so well

Oh sorry to hear I'm like weeks ago, I was on the train today and I was thinking at how I should not watch anything new again, like what's the point (same stuff I already complained about weeks ago, to be short). Like I don't want to get excited for a new show because it won't be renewed/it will be renewed but it's going to suck shipping wise/it's going to not have a fandom. I almost envy those who are fan of successful shows and can write, produce arts or simply enjoy the community. I don't know how it feels like anymore. I know I sound like a broken record, but everytime I open (not to mention Twitter) I remember this and it sucks.


I'm interested in fanfiction because it's the only thing I have left. My shows gets cancelled and my ships don't have the screentime they deserve or need or they're written so poorly that I can't even make gifsets of them, because they don't have scenes together despite being in a relationship. But it sucks because as I said it's not a thing anymore and all the fandoms of cancelled shows I watched, instead of diving into fanfiction to cope with the poor writing/cancellation, simply die and move to new shows.

But even shipping isn't the same as before, now it's all tiktoks and edits or nothing, like people don't even write simple ships headcanons anymore on Tumblr (so not fics, just a paragraph or few sentences about what they imagine X ship does). I wrote one about Akimax on Valentine's Day last week and almost none liked it or reblogged it and the Akimax tag is simply dreary. I didn't post it here because almost everytime I tried to start a conversation about them and headcanons, no one joined me, so

Ships that get content are never mine, I guess. I'm a disheartening mod, I know, sorry I wish thinking of GG didn't make me feel so negative

so I need a small break from here I'll be back asap!

Take care sorry to hear you're unwell, but sending positive vibes so you can feel better soon!

[fire for a heart]

sorry havent been around much been busy and tired

hope you are doing well

aww Sara i understand take care

[airali_glo]

Oh don't you have days off soon?

I'm fine, nothing really interesting to say I started watching S2 of Carnival Row and it's still meh. I won't miss it when it's over.

[lessismore]

Vote for LOTR please !!!

https://www.fanforum.com/f50/new-for...here-63269748/

[airali_glo]

Done
How's your week going? Mine is meh.

[fall into your smile]

Hope all is well.

[airali_glo]

Heyyyyy at first when I saw the nickname I was like OH A NEW USER because you changed yours

Kinda a meh week for me also the weather isn't nice. Still no news about my shows returning and Carnival Row is still boring. Wat about you?

[lessismore]

She changes her username, couldn’t recognise at first too

I am not wo well but we won the challenge it was fun

[Cadenf]

Just popping in to say hi.

[shinebrighterxx]

Passing through

[airali_glo]

She changes her username, couldn’t recognise at first too

Everytime that happens I get excited because I think it's someone new

Hey everyone, thanks for stopping by sorry to hear your weeks haven't been so good hope next one is better. Mine has been meh, too many thoughts, but I worked a lot on my fic. I strted it last year and I wish I had worked on it more, I went too slow and now, since I want to complete it before posting it, I have to wait and GG is over. Wondering if anyone will read it

I had plans to see a friend next week, but she can't come to my city anymore, so it's postponed

Still no news about my shows

[lessismore]

Yeah that happens to me too.

My days won’t get better, as it seems… I hope yours will

[like a perfect storm]

I'm still really sick and all over the place emotionally but I'm trying to be here again.

[airali_glo]

My days won’t get better, as it seems…

Oh, that's sad to hear are you sure? I hope it gets better anyway, whatever the reason is. I'm not that bad, it's just that there's a mix of things I think about lately and I always look for tv shows or creative stuff to distract and get inspired, but I don't have many these days, plus I feel out of place in fandoms lately, everything moves fast and I still care about stuff when other people moved on and I wish I could go back to when I enjoyed such things for me first, not necessarily to interact with others or because I saw other people talking about it. I used to buy poetry books to find poems about my OTPs! After getting involved with social media and such, it's kinda difficult, though.

Awww Sara do it if we can make you feel better or distract you, otherwise just take it slow, take your time it's going to get better, trust

[like a perfect storm]

Originally Posted by airali_glo (View Post) Oh, that's sad to hear are you sure? I hope it gets better anyway, whatever the reason is. I'm not that bad, it's just that there's a mix of things I think about lately and I always look for tv shows or creative stuff to distract and get inspired, but I don't have many these days, plus I feel out of place in fandoms lately, everything moves fast and I still care about stuff when other people moved on and I wish I could go back to when I enjoyed such things for me first, not necessarily to interact with others or because I saw other people talking about it. I used to buy poetry books to find poems about my OTPs! After getting involved with social media and such, it's kinda difficult, though. Awww Sara do it if we can make you feel better or distract you, otherwise just take it slow, take your time it's going to get better, trust

awww thanks bb. you guys do help I just have no energy to type much atm ugh.