jediwands

That's so true. I honestly don't know how you do your job given your office environment. I wouldn't be able to handle it.

Exactly right.

ds44

So, I finally opened my file with my novel and i actually have 26, 870 words completed.

jediwands

Wow, that's awesome, Shu! Are you going to continue working on it over break?

ds44

Yes I have three days with just my mom, sis and my youngest. I am rereading what I wrote now so I can finish the gaps in chapter 6, , 7, 8, 9.

jediwands

Nice! Sounds like a good plan.

Jerry D

Hi everyone! We're back from our vacation and we had a wonderful time. I hope that you all have a very Merry Christmas.

jediwands

Merry Christmas! Glad you guys had a great time on vacation!

secretk

It's really draining . I could either do only programming or only deal with political issues. It's really difficult to handle both in the same time and to switch from one setting to another. However someone needs to do the political part and I don't trust anyone else with it.

To be honest I knew since young age that I will need English. Like I said I knew what I wanted to work and there are not that many completely Bulgarian companies here that offer such jobs. Most companies are foreign and they expect you to know English at least. This is why I tried my best to learn it in high school and to continue maintaining it. Of course the more I use it at work, the better for me . Language always takes practice and my job actually helps me maintaining it.

Well posting here helps as well of course .

Shu this is awesome!

Jerry welcome back! What a vacation you had!

jediwands

I can only imagine how draining it is. I am drained from being out last night on Christmas Eve. I can hardly handle one night, a peaceful holiday night at that. I couldn't imagine you going to your job daily and having to deal with some many idiotic people. I'd be drained just going and dealing with cool people daily, lol. I couldn't imagine dealing with difficult people who include HR, your boss, the jerk. It has to be so challenging for you.

I would imagine it would.

So cool how you knew what you wanted to do and planned accordingly. That's awesome.

secretk

Was it too loud? Or it was too crowded? Or both?

It is challenging. This is why I listen to music so much at work. I even dance at the music . They are all used to this. I have discussion and then I recharge by listening to music.

Definitely helps! Just by posting here I am forced to learn to express myself freely in English you know. And of course I know that it's not the best writing style out there or the best grammar or vocabulary, but it's better than nothing. Plus me not posting won't help either. So it's better to post in some so so English than nothing .

Well yeah I was weird kid . At the age of 4 I was able to understand when my mother is telling me that she has no money to buy me a toy. I would still want to go to the shop and state at the toy and imagine myself having it but I never threw a tantrum for her to buy it. So yeah I was just old soul.

So remember my niece I was talking about? Well she realized herself that she confuses me with her mother so now she calls me "Momma big sister" . Apparently I am a mix between momma and big sister for her . She throw tantrums in front of her parents and she is quite stubborn but I don't cave. Today she kicked me in the leg and I just told her "Do not kick me". She then tried to hit me with a hand and I told her "Do not hit me". She then remained on the floor face down wanting me to pay attention to her. I did not. Then they had to leave and she was without shoes. I just sat on the floor and told her to come to me. She did and put on her shoes.

So I guess even though I get afraid and can't deal with kids for long periods, I am seen by her as authority enough to not try her games with me. I am not the one to cave in to be honest.

jediwands

It wasn't too loud or too crowded even. It wasn't even that bad. It was the entire process of going out, what the holidays mean right now in general, just having to be ON in a social setting.

So great you have this.

I don't even have music. Music makes me nervous when I am in a setting like that. Not sure why.

Totally makes sense.

Wow. You are definitely an old Soul.

That's awesome. I like her new nickname for you too. You are definitely an authority figure for her, a role model even, and it looks like a true calming force as well. That's great.

secretk

Makes sense . Today you planned relaxing day at home I hope?
. Yeah I love music and I won't be able t work without being able to listen to music. It's why I invested in so good headphones.

I see. Actually most people that I know find it weird that I work with music, but I am like that since being kid. Music helps me isolate myself from the outer world. I can focus on the task and work on it. And I can recharge .

Yep .

Yeah at least for now it seems that she feels drawn to me enough to not try her mischief ways on me.

jediwands

We just got back from my sister's. We went over there for breakfast and to hang out for a while. Nothing planned today outside of watching sports and tuning out the world, lol.

That's great. I wonder why it bothers me so much? I'm thinking maybe something with the Capricorn Sun and/or the Empath part. I can't think of anything else.

That's wonderful.

Great! She sounds like a cute, little spitfire.

secretk

Sounds good. Those days are actually far better compared to something planned. At least for me.

. Could be . And maybe you find the music too distracting?

I have been that way since kid. I love music. Btw the niece seems into music too. She is even now singing some children's songs.

Oh man she is so stubborn. Once she sets her mind on something, it takes really stubborn person to fight her. Unfortunately for her I am stubborn myself. I can be quite persistent and I don't care about her antics.

jediwands

Me too.

I think that’s part of it. But also, I just feel nervous and overwhelmed. I could be picking up a little too much on the Energy behind the music. I’m absorbing the Energy I think and instead of embracing and feeling calm, I feel overwhelmed.

For example, I listen to Enya... I find this song absolutely beautiful... yet I start crying when I hear it. It’s not calming even if it is for many... I feel sad.



That’s great!

You guys are a match made in heaven.