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Old 08-01-2018, 12:33 AM
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Originally Posted by SojournHeart11 (View Post)
For some people, dealing with emotions can be a scary thing if you don't have a level head on your shoulders for it. To Brian, showing emotions meant showing how vulnerable he was, because he knew just how deep his feelings could go... it probably scared the mess out of him. You have so much to lose when you wear your heart on your sleeve, and a lot of times, the wrong kinds of people can mistake an expression of vulnerability for a weakness... or use that vulnerability against you. Some people just do not like the feeling of feeling too much because it can make you lose yourself, or go crazy. That's why he used sex as a means to have fun. No sooner than he'd bag you, you were out because it can get emotional very fast. He wanted to avoid all that heavy stuff. Then there's that whole thing about fearing you'll lose somebody and getting hurt.

Fortunately, Justin showed him through his actions and words it didn't always have to be that way... but Brian just kept making wrong turns out of fear of falling too hard for him, or anybody.
I guess to accept and especially admit his feelings to himself were the hardest thing he had to do so far he was able to deal with all the physical pain and not being loved, but he tried so hard to protect himslef from being hurt again in a deeper way that he didn't dare to feel .. and he was proven right in his eyes.. cause the moment he dared to show Justin how he felt ( at the promdance and shortly after) fortune struck down and showed him how bad it can hurt to love and loose your love
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