I agree - I think he would've seen Lily smiling at him, letting him know that he was forgiven. It's losing her friendship that devasted him, then when she died ... it broke him.
"The man you are talking so disrespectfully to is not only your son but my partner of 49 years. And I will have you know he is the most wonderful man in the world ... I can't imagine my life without him. So when you talk to him, you talk to him with respect!" - Freddie Thornhill
FREDDIE & STUART (Vicious)