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angel_wings05 · 02-24-2009, 03:20 PM

This was it..Molly's big chance to prove to her why Eric was no good for her. What was wrong with him? Why did she and Jamie think he was such a bad guy. Even Tasha had believed so, she never bothered hiding her distain for Ridley’s boy All Ridley wanted was for her to be honest. She just needed to tell her the truth that was it..But she couldn't do it. She still couldn't do it. After voicing how glad she was that Ridley was opening her eyes and starting to have doubts as she described it, Molly said two words her sister really didn't want to hear. 'I can't.' Sighing, Ridley was ready to fight her sister on it and demand she tell her why not when Molly went on. 'I know you're going to hate me for it but I can't tell you what you want to hear.If you could just trust me.' She shook her head, hurt by her sisters words. Doesn't she realize how much of hypocrite she is being? "I don't hate you Molly. I could never hate you. Your my sister I love I just..I don't understand." Ridley looked away for a moment, forcing back the tears she knew were coming.

"I mean how can you expect me to trust you when you clearly don't trust me." If Molly trusted her she would have just told her by now but she hasn't..She won't. She refuses to tell her why she doesn't want her with Eric. "Do you realize that your leaving me with no choice? How can I not trust him and believe him when you can't find a way to trust me enough to tell my why he's so wrong for me." Unable to keep her tears or frustration in check any longer, Ridley let out an aggravated sigh. "I am getting so sick of everybody telling me how horrible he is while having nothing solid to back it up with. I mean God Molly he can't be that dangerous or bad if you let me be with him for this long...Right? If he's so dangerous and so awful like you and Jamie and everyone says he is.." Ridley paused for only a second. "Then you would have told me the truth by now, you would have told me whatever it is your keeping from me. Because I know you and I know you would never let me let my guard down and open my heart to someone like that..Someone you know could hurt me.." Blinking back her tears, she trailed off as she caught sight of Jamie dancing with Laura.

She pursed her lips together somewhat tightly and bit down on her lower lip thinking somehow that pain would make seeing him with her hurt less..somehow. As much as she really really didn‘t like Laura Spencer deep down Ridley knew a big part of her was jealous of the self centered blonde. Not really of her but more of what she gets to have. Jealous of the years she had with Jamie and how during that time she probably had his heart more than anyone else…Jealous that she was the one given such a gift as having Jamie’s child was..and what a gift it would be. One she would cherish and love and never take for granted if she were in Laura’s shoes. Don’t get her wrong, the thought of being a mother use to terrify her and in someways it still did. But since Drake came was born and she’s spent so much time being around him and taking care of him…She realized if that day ever came for her she might not be such a terrible mother after all. She was good with him in a way she never expected to be. And lastly she was jealous over the simple fact that it was inevitable that Laura and Jamie would be together again. Maybe fear was a better word for that one. With the baby in the picture it only solidified Ridley’s fears of them getting together again…If they weren’t already. And it just confirmed that keeping any feelings she had for Jamie underwraps and to herself was probably the right choice. Ridley tore her eyes away from the dancing couple not wanting Jamie to catch her staring..Or Molly either for that matter.

Natalie nodded at Trent glad to hear him say he understood what she was trying to say.. 'And let's just say that I feel the same way about being a cop too.' He added, offering her his arm after giving the man at the door their invitations. Although hesitating at first, Natalie took his arm and walked inside the spacious mansion with him. As much as she denied it to him and herself this was a date. There was no other word for it. He asked her to come with him and after turning him down time and time before she finally said yes or fine, she couldn't remember her exact words when accepting his invitation to accompany him. And despite how many times in that week she picked up the phone to cancel she never ended up actually doing it. He bought her flowers, he told her she looked beautiful, opened the car door for her and now offered his arm. It was definitely a date. No matter how long she'd been out of practice she could still recognize the signs. She hadn't been on a date since she'd been with Michael. They use to pick one night every week and they would call it their night. Usually it was a Friday but sometimes it ended up being on a Sunday or Tuesday. Sometimes they'd go to a restaurant or stay home together or something but usually they just went to Jake's for pool, burgers, and beer. She loved her junk food alright. Jakes was more her type of place than the Metro Court or Mario's and it was for Michael too. After all, that bar was where they first met each other. She played a lot of games of pool and danced with him by the jukebox a many of times since the few years she's lived in Port Charles. She wished he was here. That he hadn't felt the need to leave the Country and go further away from his family than ever before. If he only knew how much she misses him. It's not just here and there or every now and then. Missing him. It’s constant. As in..She misses him all the time.

"Well to be honest...I've never been too fond of cops.." She finally responded, laughing slightly at the 'ya think?' look he gave her. "What? It's not my fault. The law just doesn't like me very much.." Natalie defended herself. "And most the time I don't like it either. Which you probably already know given some of my past transgressions." She joked with a teasing smile as they walked into the main ballroom. "But..I'm having a good time tonight so far." She admitted with a light shrug. It was good for her to get out for a night..The other nurses would be proud since according to them staying in as much as she does is unhealthy. Looking around the room she took in the scenary. The place looked absolutely stunning. Michael’s cousin really outdid herself. She was mesmerized by lavish decor and all the different colored incredible dresses and masks. Growing up where she did she was never really privileged to these type of places but she use to dream of what it would be like if she was. That’d she meets some prince charming that would sweep her off her feet. In more ways than one she got her wish when she fell in love with Michael. As cliché and cheesy at it sounded he was the prince charming she always dreamed of…Too bad she didn’t get the happily after that’s suppose to come along with it. As much as she missed him and wanted him to come home to her she was hurt deeply over the fact that he never asked her to go with him. Caroline, Michael and her could have started over somewhere. Didn’t he want that? Didn’t he want them to be a family again? They could have been away from here. Away from the danger and the violence. But he said he had to go on his own which makes it seem like he wanted to start over but not with her and not with Caroline but by himself. What else was she suppose to think with the way he left? It’s not like he called or wrote or kept in touch with her anyway to tell her she was wrong. He didn’t even tell her where he was going or if he would ever come back. Sighing softly, Natalie forced thoughts of Michael to the back of her mind. She had to stop thinking about him it wasn’t doing anyone any good. He was gone. She just had to find a way to accept that. But for someone who was use to fighting back and never giving up like Natalie was. It just wasn’t easy. It was just really hard letting go of him when she could still feel him in so many ways.

OOC: Just ignore the Claudia in her icon

Constance raised an eyebrow when she said it was complicated. What exactly did she mean by that? In what way what it complicated? And then it dawned on her...Was Reese in some sort of trouble? "Complicated..What do you mean are you in some kind of danger or something?" Constance asked with worry evident in her features. She was about to go on and explain that if that was the case their were ways to keep her safe but Reese spoke again first changing the subject and choosing that moment to answer her questions about Jamie. He did know. She saw him a couple months back on the Haunted Star. It must have been the night of Chase's re-opening. Constance was there that night to why hadn't she seen her? Given the way she way trying to remain hidden tonight Constance could only assume she was doing the same on the night she was on the Haunted Star and ever since she'd been back..That made Constance wonder. How long had she been back in Port Charles and why was she being so hush hush about it? There had to be a reason. A reason why she's stayed away for so long, why she never let her family know she was indeed alive. The Reese Constance remembered would never be able to stay away from her son unless somehow she was being forced to. Before Constance had a chance to ask her what she was thinking, Reese asked her how Jamie was followed by something else Constance entirely wasn't expecting.

'How's your life together?' She thought..She thought they ended up together. Constance smiled sadly as Reese asked her if they're happy nodding towards the ring on her finger. "I..Oh Reese. Jamie and I..We never ended up together." Constance was honest with Reese, her voice soft with a hint of sadness in it. She played with her wedding ring, nervous habit, shrugging her shoulders softly as she went on. "A lot happened after my mother passed..and then you...I was really lost for awhile and I..It just never happened for us." She admitted, not sure how Reese would react. Especially when she tells her just who she is married to. She knows how her husband feels about Reese and she just assumed the feeling was mutual..It's not like Chase had many friends in this town. "But we're still best friends..and close." For the most part anyways. It was taking time maybe more than she thought it would but things were slowly going back to normal between them..Or at least as normal as they could be given everything. “I’m not going to lie…He’s been going through a lot lately…I mean a lot has happened to him.” Constance paused for a moment unable to hide the sadness and guilt in her eyes. “He needs you Reese…Now more than ever.”