Thank you Nikki I know you'll understand what I meant more than anyone in the world. I love you for that . And yes, I think Dean wants to reach out and understand him more, but Sam doesn't want to let Dean down. Having the demon blood is already a curse for him, how would he explain it to Dean? How else can he explain that he feels like a freak and that he's probably going to let Dean down just simply because he has that blood in him. It scares the hell out of Sam that somehow he'll do something evil because of it, maybe that's why he wanted to not think about it and just focus on using it for the good of other people.

I'm not saying that Sam is right in what he's doing. I'm scared for him, too. It can consume him, it's a demon blood after all. But people (and Dean) should also understand that there are people who essentially wanted to do good, and it's in their humanity even though everything around them is telling them otherwise. Say Robin Hood, say Ned Kelly... yes, these two do bad things for the good of others. Sammy is trying to do something good out of something bad. You must give props to the boy instead of hate and passing judgment too quickly. We must give the boy a break, he needed it!