| I was just rewatching this episode for the 5th time and my optimism is fading as we speak.
The RC drawing is by far the most romantic and unselfish act of love I have ever seen. Never mind that it's Peyton we're talking about, never mind she loves him to death, never mind he was a jerk for the entire time and never mind this is just a tv show but that's love. Profound and eternal love.
But Lucas? I've had a tough time understanding this boy for the entire season, but this final episode just closed that door completely. I could buy all of this denial crap and fear of being rejected and brokenhearted once more by Peyton (I'm not even going to begin to dicsuss his part in the whole break-up-someday situation) but I'm not buying what was portrayed in this last episode.
I now you guys will dissagre and please dissagre, reasure me by all means, but I can't understand that he's more touched by Lindsey's appearence and stupid simple lines she had then by Peyton's art. I can't believe he actually talked about Lindsey while sitting on her art and saying he was thinking of leaving. And the LP Tric scene? It was so heartbreakingly bitter (with a touch of sweet), calm, serene, sad... Just not the way I imagined it after the big display of Peyton's emotions. She invested so much passion in that art swallowing her pride after he said IHY and all he says 'I don't hate you, it was hard letting you go, it still is'. We suffered enough for this entire season, what we got last night doesn't even begin to compensate it.
So, I don't even care who's he gonna marry. It's his behaviour before the proposal that mattered and where Lucas once again failed. Or the proposal itself? Well I feel sorry for the girl who excepts this lame excuse he calls a proposal.
I know this is just a show, creation of art and imagionation, but it's the art and imagionation I'm not feeling anymore. And I also know it's my own fault I'm this much invested in believing this kind of love actually exists but I have to say... Congratulations, Mark, I think you've finally destroyed a dash of faith I had till now.
So, once again, feel free to smash my head for thinking this way and my heart for feeling this way, bash me all you want. But I just can't help it, it's the way I feel... I'm sorry, this just doesn't do it for me... __________________ I want to be on your side forever. |