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frenchjenny · 07-27-2006, 08:26 AM

the end ! i hope you'll like it !

Everybody enjoyed this party. Then each one of us began to come home. Dawson and Jen live together and i was helping Pacey to clean.
J : you know sometimes i miss this environment
P : wich one ?
J : bar, drunks guys… finally i was kind of happy when i were a waitress. In a bar I feel like I’m home.
P : you know honey, you can give up the edition’s world, devote in writing and help me here when you’ll want to.
J : really ? you think i could ?
P : if the employer/ employed relationship is not a problem for you…
J :come Pacey, the both of us know who’s the boss, don’t we ?
P : come here… (he kissed me with a sweet way). And you would have flexible working hours… it would be just to help me…
J : it would be great… when do i start ?
P : when you want to dear love… by the way i forgot the keys of the restaurant, could you go home and find them ? i stay here and finish to clean.
J : of course ! i’ll be back in 15 minutes.
P : ok !

I came back few minutes later.
J : oh god Pacey this is just magnificent !
Before me carpet made with roses’ petal, the ceiling became a stars’ sky and candles made me a way towards the stage of the bar. I heard Pacey’s voice:
P : miss Potter is invited to climb to the stage please.

I was walking to the stage when Pacey appeared, waiting for me on stage. At the second i put my foot on the first step the music “say goodnight” began and Pacey give his hand to me.
P : do you accept this danse ?
J : with pleasure !
I was as if i were flying, as if i were dreaming.
J : I love you for all you are, for all you give to me, because you know better than anyone else, because you always has the wave or the word or the silent I need. I love you just because you love me just as I am without compromise.
P : be careful i coult trust in what you said….
J : you can ‘cause it’s true. I’ll always be with you, I’ll always follow my heart and it wants to be with yours.
P : happy you say that ‘cause there is something i want to give you.
He took a box in his pocket; it was simple but so beautiful.
J : Pacey what is that ???
Ha took me in his arms and lept dancing, with the box in one of his hand.
P : well few years ago, Bessie gave me this box. It belongs to your mum. (he grasped me harder because he knew what i felt). She asked me to take care of it as if it was my heart, what I did. She told me what were inside but Bessie and your mum didn’t want me to look inside so I’ve never opened it. She asked me to give it to you when I would feel it was the good and the one time.when you left for France i went back to Capeside to give it back to Bessie. I thought never see you again. but she answered me: “Pacey, don’t ask me how I know that, but she’ll come back. So keep this box and take care of it. The time will come I’m sure of that ». And she was right! She ask me to give it to you, that’s what i do.

When I opened the box, a letter winded around a ring : simple and beautiful just as my mum was. I read the letter :

My dear Jo,
Here you are, a wonderful woman. I haven’t been here these last difficult years but I want you to know that I’ve never left you, I’ve always been closed to your heart. I wanted so much to be here for the important moment of your life. If you read this letter, that’s because Bessie is convinced that the man by your side will know how make you happy. She promised this and I’m happy she kept her promise. Unfortunately I don’t know this man but I trust you and I know you’ll listen to your heart. I love you sweetheart, and I wich you to have a wonderful life, I’ll always be with you,
Your mum.
Ps : enclosed a letter. I would like you to give it to one of your old friends. I don’t know if you still see him : this is Pacey Witter.

I think that Pacey saw the astonishment of my face.
P : what’s happen ?
J : there’s one for you !
P : i’ll read it in a moment. Are you ok ?
J : yes. I think that mum and Bessie were right. They knew i would listen to my heart to make my choice.
(he took the ring)
P: Joey,”your love is magical, that’s how I feel. But I have not the words here to explain. Gone is the grace for expressions of passion. But there are worlds and worlds of ways to explain to tell you how I feel. But I am speechless, that’s how you make me feel. Though I'm with you I am far away and nothing is for real. When I'm with you I am lost for words, I don't know what to say” (speechless, Michael Jackson) and My head's spinning because of this happiness. (/ this happiness makes My head's spinning)
(he made a break and look at me in the eyes)
“I've nothing much to offer. There's nothing much to take. I'm absolutely sane. As long as we're together, the rest can go to hell. I absolutely love you. If our love song could fly over mountains, could laugh at the ocean, just like the films, there's no reason to feel all the hard times. Nothing much could happen. As long as you're still smiling there's nothing more I need. I absolutely love you and if my love is your love we're certain to succeed”. (absolute beginners)
I’m gonna count to 10 and I’ll ask you to marry me. During I count you can ponder on this question and on your answer.(he wipe the tears on my jowls with a sweet (geste) and keep my eyes in his eyes and keep dancing slowly) 8…9…10…Miss Josephine Potter, will you make my happiness and marry me?
Joey: Pacey, this new relation between us scares me because it happens very fast. But I see so many beautiful things in you to let you go. You learn me that it’s only keeping risk and searching in the depths of my heart that I could find what I need and what I dream of: someone who loves me as I am and who supports me, who understands me. I love you Pacey.
“I love you without knowing how… or when… or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without explexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way than this” ! (Patch Adams) This only love is enough to make me happy and for all my happiness you share it. I know you ‘ll always be on my side and I make you the promise that each day God gives me I’ll try to show you how much I love you et how much I need you. So yes Pacey Witter, I wanna mary you ! And I never want to spend another day without you !
He took me in his arms and make me fly…this moment was magic.
P : so now I’m ready to read Liliane’s words.

Pacey,
If you read these words then it’s mean that you’re still in touch with Joey and I’m deeply happy of that. If she gave you this letter that’s mean she’s gonna get married. I don’t know who this man is but I know he’ll make her happy. You maybe wonder why I’ve writing a letter to you. Well if Joey’ll get married it is because she’s happy and I know you kept the promise you really wanted to keep. You maybe don’t remember because you were really young but you came to see me this morning. I write you this letter you’re still a child. I was in my bed and you came into my room, in a shy way and asked me to come in. you sat on my bed next to me, you took my hand and said to me “Madam Potter, you’re the most beautiful woman I know, and the sweeter. I know you’re gonna die, I don’t really understand why. I came and saw you to tell you that I attend to Joey and I’ll do my best to make her happy. I promise you. Even if we quarrel a lot, I like her you know. She looks like you a lot. So i wanted to tell you that you don’t have to be worry because I’ll always be here for her, I’ll always take care of her. It’s a promise.” And then you spited in your hand and give it to me saying “you have to spit too to seal the promise.” And I’ve laughed. I’ve laughed for the very first time for so many months. You made me laughed just by being yourself. I wanted to thank you, I know I’m dying and I haven’t so much time yet, but I’m not worry anymore since this morning. If you read this letter that’s mean that Joey is happy. So I thank you to have attended to her.
With all my gratefulness and my friendship,
Liliane.

Pacey let his tears to ship on his jowls. He looked like a lost child. I took him in my arms and we stayed like this a long time. Then he gave me the letter.
J : (after having read Pacey’s letter) I think my mum couldn’t be more happy. I choose you and no one else and I’m sure it’s that she hope in her heart.
P : thank you. I love you so much
J : thanks for always have been on my side. Promise me we’ll never break up
P : I promise.

Several months have passed. I didn’t have time to write to you. Pacey and I are eager to get married. I’m becoming a writer and I help him sometimes at the restaurant. We try so see the others very often. Everything came back just like it used to be when we were student.

dear you,
We are married ! the wedding were wonderfull with all family and friends and all happiness we wanted! Look at the wedding’s pictures! I show you picture of my past to… this is the entire story…

The time goes by and I feel in peace. That’s why I write you less and less. But I don’t forget you…

I used to be afraid of so many things... That I'd never grow up. That I'd be trapped in the same place for all eternity. That my dreams would forever be shy of my reach. It's true what they say. Time plays tricks on you. One day you're dreaming, the next your dream has become your reality. And now that this scared little girl no longer follows me wherever I go, I miss her. I do. 'Cause there are things I wanna tell her-- to relax, to lighten up, that it is all going to be ok. I want her to know that meeting people who like you, who understand you, who actually accept you for who you are, will become an increasingly rare occurrence. Jen, Jack, Audrey, Andie, Pacey, and Dawson. These people who contributed to who I am, they are with me wherever I go, and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. Because the truth is... it was the best of times. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget. I can't swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt.

All this time without writing you !!!! shame on me… Pacey and I are still happy and married. We have 2 kids : Joshua and Katie. Dawson and Jen get married too and their children James and Michelle are the 2 best friends of Joshua and Katie. Jack and Doug are still their neighbours and Amy is becoming a wonderful woman. Seeing Jen is each day a beautiful gift and we all thank life for that. We all lunch together each Sunday and sometimes Andie and her husband come just as Audrey, Charly and their cute monster. We all know that our lives are combine with each other.

I don’t think i’ll write to you one more time because i think that the happiness can’t be told. It just can be lived. I remember when I was student, Wilder asked them to find out the interlocutor of letters he gave to the class. I was the only one to think of a diary… maybe someday some students would wonder to whom I am writing...